Webb family empire

So I haven’t posted in awhile. My mental health has been in a twirl of trial and error. So between my anxiety and depression. I have overwhelmed moments of up and downs. Nothing to major as I use different supplements to help me with my mental health. But as we all know nothing is perfect or a exact science. I have learned to be more officiant about my health because of the past fails I have learned from and overcame. I got a lot of different things going on since we did a overhaul of our life and major changes. So it has caught up with me and hit me big. Which in return has also provided confidence more because I used to to give in and give up and return to old habits. Not today !!

Now I did get overwhelmed with everything. Because of course this is a completely new level of change up Iv ever done. So of course I tried to do everything all together. Of course I know this is not ever going to work lol 😆 but of course we as parents and woman have to do everything to get it done. Of course this turns out way more complicated then it should of been. So a moment of fail!! Almost took me back. But my kids reminded me umm nope not happening. So I woke up the next day. Chose to relax and reboot. Then I got my mindfulness 🧘🏼‍♀️ recovery attitude back. Chose is my favorite word. Because failure isn’t the problem. It’s the next chose I make next after that fail I believe in.

Giving myself my truth is important. Because this big move was not a fix all. It was a path to take too fix everything else. See even more then before. All the things still on a lingering issue is still needing to be put first to continue working on daily. Even our recovery is a daily routine. So the faults we gave in our marriage is a daily routine to work on. My daily routine as a mother to be a better mom each day is a daily routine. But of course there is just our basic daily routine. So in everything. Daily trial and error is a good thing. Because all the errors each day. The next day is a new day to retry and learn from all the errors of the day before.

I decided to do my best each day. I decided to take my trial and errors and continue to learn. Even in the moments I think I’m going to go overboard. Learning about myself was a great journey and I take my health care seriously now because I know the depths of my life and where it can take me if I don’t. Not all bad things are going to be dark as long as we remember the sunshine in our good days. the next day is a new chance to succeed in something that you failed the day before.

Truth is. Life isn’t easy. It’s how we choose to make it easier. Growth doesn’t have to big. It’s on our daily routine and it’s in our daily actions that define our family. Each day is different from the last day. Each try is different than our last try. Our strength is not going backwards no matter where how or what we can accomplish. It’s what it is we have to do to make sure each day is more than what we did yesterday.

It’s not easy. Because I have days I don’t want to do anything. I have days I just want to give up. Give in and go home. But I also know that if I do that. I stay stuck in the same pattern no matter where I am. So my choice is to heal from what ever is ailing me and continue to push myself each day. Even if it’s something small. Because taking my mental health seriously keeps my recovery in check. Which is what we thrive for. So Nothing is perfect or always on track. But what I do know. Is it is ok. Being happy with a twist of chaos is typically ok. Crying because I’m overwhelmed is ok. Because I cry it it and got up and continued forward.

Don’t let the fear of being overwhelmed take you out. Because it’s ok. I feel it’s a relief and a blessing. Because it’s your body telling you to ok. Calm. Reflect. Rethink. Reboot. And then get up n kick life ass for the rest of the day or week. Don’t let a day of you needing to reboot take you out to long.

Happy new week everyone. Cry it out and reboot. Totally 💯. Take your health seriously and always listen to your body. Trust the process and yourself.

There are nights when I can’t sleep or I’m just restless. Even as we heal from our terrible memories. They still come flooding in at times. So at times now. I have moments where I don’t sleep or sleep much. Then the next is depression and when the c-ptsd gets to a level of annoyance. Anxiety pops in through the whole lot of emotions and then I’m awake. Drinking coffee and watching shows on Netflix because I need to pull myself out of the spiral path because soon you’re kids awake.

Iv learned to work through even as hard as it is to be ok through another memory of pain. Once you get out of trying to numb it or forget it. It becomes a big deal. Emotionally draining of course. But I worked hard to help myself in a healthy and safe way. I can tell you that it’s exhausting and stressful but it’s not a rock bottom tragedy anymore. Yes. I’m tired and I’m emotionally exhausted. But at least I’m here and present for my kids and they are with me.

That my friend is going to be the best memories to overcome my bad ones. Eventually some old ones have faded and not too much of a pain anymore. Some more then others are worse. So I’m still healing my old wounds as I’m gaining strength to stay healthy happy and blessed. Each day is a working process for myself. I don’t take anything for granted. So to stay this path I will always have to continue each day with gratitude and prayers.

My kids are learning about a process from this emotionally and mentally as well. They understand I went through a lot of different things. Instead of teaching a negative way to get through it. I’m now teaching a healthy lifestyle for anything that comes through their own journey. I’m taking the cycle of my history and ending it with me now. It’s complicated and irritating sometimes but honestly it’s a lot easier knowing what it’s going to do for them.

You’re not going to be able to accomplish anything without healing. It’s rough and ruthless. But with hard work and stability comes a healthier and happier version of you. Which in the end. Return a brighter future. Every day is going to be a better day. Every day is also going to be hard. But at the end of the day. Stopping the old version of you and bringing out the new version. Oh my gosh I’m not going backwards.

Best version of me. Is watching the smiles and hearing the laughter of my kids. Taking care of myself gives me the best days for them. Healing is a continuing journey. But I take those steps to keep my kids on the top path and too version’s of themselves as well. Because today they won’t see the tired or the depression from a night of terrible memories. They will wake up this morning to their mom happy and ready for the day. Because I’m healing in a healthy way not in the old way.

We can recover from anything. Just put in the effort and the passion into yourself. Becoming myself has always been my priority. Becoming the mom I never had and always wanted. Now that is the best thing ever.

Don’t give up. Don’t give in. Keep going up to the top and the best part of the journey will always be available.

This last few months have been really stressful in so many ways. Trying to find a new footing in a whole new place is strange, scary and exciting all in one. Sometimes I feel like it’s way to much at once. But on the other hand it’s a amazing beginning. The kids are failing into their own selfs, which has just been a true blessing from everything we have been through. I’m failing into my own self as well.

Being out of my normal knowledge about a place I know nothing about is far from a place a grew up in has had many different challenges more for myself. Keeping myself from feeling overwhelmed and not going backwards is my for most my goal each day. remembering my reasons helps me complete this process each day.

My kids are my priority and my reason whys. I also have to remind myself I’m important too. My self worth and boundaries are way more of the reason for my change. I took a big look at all my past moments and regained the strength to overcome from each learning experience I went through. The good and the bad.

For years I let my past control my present and ruin everything I tried to build. I’d fall back on my old ways. I never put my kids in my history or anything I chose to run away and do. But in end I know it caused a lot of problems within my mom duties. It made their life way more then what it needed. I worked a few years to heal myself until today. Now I’m continuing everything I learned and today still in a healthy way for not only them but myself.

Taking my overwhelming moments from a huge move and working through them healthier than before. Which is weird because I never allowed myself to understand what I need to to and do it healthy and happy and turning it around into something amazing instead. If it got to overwhelming I use to just give up on not let myself be on another level. It was either to stressful or to out of my comfort zone.

Today. I can go through each step with my goals and actually get there. It’s not without difficult feelings and stress. But I do it with much greater purpose and ease. Today I do it with much more patience and understanding. Now sometimes I want to scream but like everyone else it is freaking hard to reboot yourself from the ground up and make a empire for yourself and you’re children and hopefully their own family’s.

Happy Friday. Today I continue to brave my anxiety and c-ptsd and of course depression. Now it’s not easy or anything you can just shake off. I have had so many issues with my mental health that I let it take me down. Today it still can take me down. I let it be my down fall. But I chose to self care day so my mental health is taking care of myself. I have to not hide anything from myself because it can do more harm to push it aside instead of dealing with it each time it crops up on me.

So a reminder of why you can go through the process and come out whole. It’s a long tough process and it’s a daily routine to work on. It’s not easy trust me. Taking self care days has been so important since I learned to take my mental healthy seriously. My kids are way more comfortable with where we are today. They thrive better each day because of our new journey and how I’m showing them how to succeed with mental health and a healthier lifestyle we have grown to love and growth each day.

Teaching them how to work through emotional health is just as good as educational. My family history came from a long line of alcoholism, addiction, abuse and many other problems. They where so bad I ran away at 13. Today I can say I stopped the cycle! We can recover from any addictions even including those caused by are own family history’s.

My kids. Myself. My family first journey together has become something different from anything I could of ever imagined. Today I will continue on my own self journey and my family journey together in order for my kids to have a happy healthy life journey.

Mental health care is important. Stopping family cycle is important. Family’s you build are more important. Recovery from anything is important.

Mann I lived in my old state my whole life. I moved all over from one end to another. Still allowing everyone to be in reach of myself. Worst case scenario I kept falling apart and continued old habits. Everything was not ok. I couldn’t build my life journey anymore without healing from everything and removing myself from myself. Allowing everyone to know about my life or my family just to keep continuing with old habits.

Trying to gain forgiveness I really never needed to. Because I was the child and they where adults and should have been guiding me not allowing participate in adult life. So no worries I remember that now as I healed up and now know what was wrong and right. So no I will not contact anymore old memories. I will not be lowering myself because you are blood and my feelings matter.

I will not try to force my anymore relationships because if I have no more problems why would I allow my children to be forced the life I ran from. I also will be present and happy now for my own kids. Healing also allows me to stop the cycle of all my repeat past things.

Now. Not everyone can heal and have a moment of healing from everything and straight up move 5,000 miles away at a whim. We privately planned slowly in 2019. Closed out everything we where under by June of 2020 and completely got rid of everything to completely start over by summer of 2021. It was a private slow process. We picked a state that fit everything we wanted and believed and went.

It’s the want. The drive. And the complete utter wash of your history that helped our just screw it n do it moment. Nothing really was holding us down. Nothing their was helping our new family wants or needs. So it just took the all mighty push. Sometimes when we look over our fails and what we learned from each one. We looked at our complete list of our lives together and we decided this is what is going to help us win.

Everything we went through was the last time we where going to be in any more situations that some how was connected with our history. We took everything in our list and we decided to completely take our lessons from it and reboot rebuild and rewrite our own self story. So it can be done it does a big deal on you emotionally for the first part.

Over 6 months now n we are finding our own way. Our own footprint. Our own wants. Our own needs. We finally have had to do it all in for our family first journey together. Our own self worth is getting more attention than what we ever thought. So it’s a stressful thing. It’s a scary thing. But we all wouldn’t go back.

As I know I don’t post a lot this year as I rebranded a few different times. I go blank or I don’t know how or what to really write. So for my New Years moments. I decided I’m going to push myself to the top and go for a bit harder and blog more.

I know most people can care less. But maybe my story can help one person. I have always tried to help others and without harming my boundaries or my family well being. I figured this was a way to help. We all have gone through something. I happen to be a multiple something’s lol.

So today as we close out another year. My plan is to build my empire and help others understand it’s ok. It truly is not at that moment of hardship. But it is ok. So like comments and shares helps others to hear about life. Not sure yet how. But I want you to listen and learn something n know it’s ok.

Be safe and happy. Happy new year everyone.

Iv meet so many levels of people over the years. I have some but very small amount of blood family I contact. I have had friends and associates. Some who became family and some who I don’t talk to anymore. Over the years though I have learned what is healthy and what is not. I have also learned that even if blood. There are some things you need to do to stay healthy for yourself.

I have had to disown many people blood related or not. Because peace is going to be my priority. I had so many things I thought family should be. I forced myself to block my childhood trauma just for the family connection. Which was totally not ok. It caused my trauma to heighten worse even in adulthood. I learned to give a distance relationship until I felt comfortable to allow a more personal one. Each time I left do to it making myself uncomfortable to continue the relationship.

Friends I found myself trying to hard to make myself happy and make sure they liked me. I crossed my own interests and emotions just for a friend. Then I finally seen myself crumbling because of those friendships. Now I have friends and make friends with who are in my same path forward. I stopped trying and watched first. If any increase of anxiety with there aura I do not complete the friendship thing.

This took quite awhile to acknowledge that I was a bit of a needy person. I wanted to replace the blood family I couldn’t have in my life by making my own family. But this is way too much to try and do. Because I found making a family isn’t about seeking it. It comes together along the way. I found I was seeking the same kinda people I was blocking. I had a idea but from a trauma standpoint. But honestly it took many years to heal my way way out of that construction I was building.

After everything that happened. I had realized I had many friends who where not in that toxic idea. Reconnecting with them and then becoming who I really am meant friends fall into place and your ideas are truly more than what your used to. You know right away when you cross a toxic person and see first and can move right along without assistance from trying. See now I can point it out in one conversation and not be worried about there feelings when I move forward from anything further.

No matter how much it takes. I don’t miss the caos. I don’t miss the need to make everyone my friend. I don’t have anything extra for this. Learn about yourself. Learn about your trauma and heal. Because we repeat behavior no matter how much we think we ok. Don’t count yourself out. It’s hard it’s deep but it’s worth it.

As a natural health life coach. Today I acknowledge a max amount of gut health needs. It’s called plexus. Best gut health care provider and natural energy. There standards come from real natural plants and standards are high. Iv been using for almost 7 years off and on.

I use constantly for a year then I’m off for a year because honestly I like my body to be happy without vitamins as well. Usually a year with gut health works amazing. No not all products work the same in health. But Iv learned my body and with a year of complete health my body usually stays on track for a year now after all this time sometimes I don’t take time off from any vitamins because I needed a lot more for multiple health reasons. Energy from plexus is way healthier then drinks from your local store.

Sometimes I need the other vitamins from plexus to help more. So I try my best to stay awake and relax and understand my body. I also learned taking breaks from support supplements is amazing to keep your more natural health life journey going and staying on same path. So try it. You never know.

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As a natural health life coach. I often try so many products from everywhere from stores to online. After some time I choose to go another step and either agree to sell it & promote it or just promote. As I continue to keep my health up with my family. So today I’m telling you about a product Iv come to enjoy the benefits. Nothing is perfect nor is a omg health fix. Nothing is the same for everyone either.

So for about 5 months now I have been using a product that has help boost my health. My family has been using it daily in our drinks and also added foot baths and face masks. Now not all my health is surrounded by this one product but it definitely has made a amazing change.

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Now as we started this. We all had detox symptoms because of all the chemicals just in daily life in our foods and things we drink. So we did have quite a few moments we did not want to continue. But as I did. I slowly became more vibrant in many aspects. My energy. My happiness. It was a lot of little things but as I continue I find a lot more things I see in changes. I glow. My skin is a lot more healthier. I feel more comfortable daily in my body.

Nothing works the same for everyone. Not everyone is going to agree or even more importantly I do not tell anyone it’s a cure. For nothing is a perfect health cure. A lot of work and daily work is key. Daily knowledge of what you and your body Need. Mental health is a major priority for a healthy body. I do recommend to try for at least 3 months to guarantee a knowledge experience to see if it right for your health.

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So it’s been 3 months since our biggest family reboot. We completely left everything non important and moved with only us and important items and moved across the country with no real plan just moved. It was just a crazy thought and a crazy action that turned into the biggest blessing. we left everything and everyone in a state we were all born and raised in. Why? Because we accomplished all we could there. Nothing else was going to lead us anywhere further. Nothing was happening to further our family goals in anyway.

We already loss and gained so much. All the losses lingered with us. All our doubts consumed us daily. All our fails haunted us in reminders. Every day we worried over our past. Over our insecurities. Over everything that ever happened had become our hold back. As hard as we worked and changed. Everything was just fine just not good enough still. So yep we got our kids together and talked about it. Then with cheers from everyone we did the most important change of our lives. We chose us. We chose happiness and we chose our own journey together for once.

3 months in and everything is incredibly different. No worries of failure but of learning how to successfully succeed. No worries of anyone with hate from our history coming in to lower our lives with doubt or threats. No worries of anything that’s taking over the outside world taking control over our lives. Because we took our downfalls and our fails. Rebooted and rebuilt our story. Our book ended and wrapped up in our lives together in our old state. Now a new story begins in our new state.

Coming up from the depths of hell and over coming every pain,every fail, every heartbreak and every moment of wins. We took our family first journey to another level. We learned from a lot of different levels of life and in return we have had one of those moments where it was just a bit more important to our family first journey to be more successful and more importantly happy instead of staying where we are comfortable with. Sometimes it’s a jump out of being comfortable and being able to understand when it’s time to get out of the box of normal.

This pandemic has been a crazy experience and honestly it lead us out of the box and into a whole new journey. We took the time to learn the wants. The needs and the capability of each of us to readjust our lives to get our own self worth of this family and become the family we always wanted. Clearing our lives up north was the beginning. Becoming self conscious and having our self worth adjusted to accommodate our lives in the south has become the light fixture in the river of life.

No matter our fails up north. We learned from them. No matter how many wins we had. We learned. We took the time to rewrite the bill for our own future. We took the time to pick apart the history that made us today. We are in a big hurry to accomplish everything that we forget to learn as we go. So when our big fail took us down and took us 3 years to get our lives together again. We did not take it for granted. We chose to go deeply into our lives and our prayers for this family first journey.

Taking a step back to learn how it began is a step forward to never repeated behavior. Anyone who wants more than what they have. Has to take the step back to reboot and take the step forward to rebuild. A family of 10 can. ( So can you.) it’s never too late. It’s never been easy. Emotionally you break then emotionally you recognize. Mentally you break but mentally you heal. Physically you break but physically you recover. The endless amount of learning from everything is going to be the best part of the journey. Fails are just a excuse to be awesome in the story of your life. Because fails isn’t meant to be the end it’s meant to be the beginning of the journey we are excited to be on.

No one can take that away but you. You are truly the sun and moon into your life story. Following the river across the journey you set for yourself is a crazy at times and is blessing at times. By the end of each chapter it is a different way through your life journey. You predict what you want, need and enjoy. We do! We did! We continue doing this!