This last few months have been really stressful in so many ways. Trying to find a new footing in a whole new place is strange, scary and exciting all in one. Sometimes I feel like it’s way to much at once. But on the other hand it’s a amazing beginning. The kids are failing into their own selfs, which has just been a true blessing from everything we have been through. I’m failing into my own self as well.

Being out of my normal knowledge about a place I know nothing about is far from a place a grew up in has had many different challenges more for myself. Keeping myself from feeling overwhelmed and not going backwards is my for most my goal each day. remembering my reasons helps me complete this process each day.

My kids are my priority and my reason whys. I also have to remind myself I’m important too. My self worth and boundaries are way more of the reason for my change. I took a big look at all my past moments and regained the strength to overcome from each learning experience I went through. The good and the bad.

For years I let my past control my present and ruin everything I tried to build. I’d fall back on my old ways. I never put my kids in my history or anything I chose to run away and do. But in end I know it caused a lot of problems within my mom duties. It made their life way more then what it needed. I worked a few years to heal myself until today. Now I’m continuing everything I learned and today still in a healthy way for not only them but myself.

Taking my overwhelming moments from a huge move and working through them healthier than before. Which is weird because I never allowed myself to understand what I need to to and do it healthy and happy and turning it around into something amazing instead. If it got to overwhelming I use to just give up on not let myself be on another level. It was either to stressful or to out of my comfort zone.

Today. I can go through each step with my goals and actually get there. It’s not without difficult feelings and stress. But I do it with much greater purpose and ease. Today I do it with much more patience and understanding. Now sometimes I want to scream but like everyone else it is freaking hard to reboot yourself from the ground up and make a empire for yourself and you’re children and hopefully their own family’s.

Happy Friday. Today I continue to brave my anxiety and c-ptsd and of course depression. Now it’s not easy or anything you can just shake off. I have had so many issues with my mental health that I let it take me down. Today it still can take me down. I let it be my down fall. But I chose to self care day so my mental health is taking care of myself. I have to not hide anything from myself because it can do more harm to push it aside instead of dealing with it each time it crops up on me.

So a reminder of why you can go through the process and come out whole. It’s a long tough process and it’s a daily routine to work on. It’s not easy trust me. Taking self care days has been so important since I learned to take my mental healthy seriously. My kids are way more comfortable with where we are today. They thrive better each day because of our new journey and how I’m showing them how to succeed with mental health and a healthier lifestyle we have grown to love and growth each day.

Teaching them how to work through emotional health is just as good as educational. My family history came from a long line of alcoholism, addiction, abuse and many other problems. They where so bad I ran away at 13. Today I can say I stopped the cycle! We can recover from any addictions even including those caused by are own family history’s.

My kids. Myself. My family first journey together has become something different from anything I could of ever imagined. Today I will continue on my own self journey and my family journey together in order for my kids to have a happy healthy life journey.

Mental health care is important. Stopping family cycle is important. Family’s you build are more important. Recovery from anything is important.