Mann I lived in my old state my whole life. I moved all over from one end to another. Still allowing everyone to be in reach of myself. Worst case scenario I kept falling apart and continued old habits. Everything was not ok. I couldn’t build my life journey anymore without healing from everything and removing myself from myself. Allowing everyone to know about my life or my family just to keep continuing with old habits.

Trying to gain forgiveness I really never needed to. Because I was the child and they where adults and should have been guiding me not allowing participate in adult life. So no worries I remember that now as I healed up and now know what was wrong and right. So no I will not contact anymore old memories. I will not be lowering myself because you are blood and my feelings matter.

I will not try to force my anymore relationships because if I have no more problems why would I allow my children to be forced the life I ran from. I also will be present and happy now for my own kids. Healing also allows me to stop the cycle of all my repeat past things.

Now. Not everyone can heal and have a moment of healing from everything and straight up move 5,000 miles away at a whim. We privately planned slowly in 2019. Closed out everything we where under by June of 2020 and completely got rid of everything to completely start over by summer of 2021. It was a private slow process. We picked a state that fit everything we wanted and believed and went.

It’s the want. The drive. And the complete utter wash of your history that helped our just screw it n do it moment. Nothing really was holding us down. Nothing their was helping our new family wants or needs. So it just took the all mighty push. Sometimes when we look over our fails and what we learned from each one. We looked at our complete list of our lives together and we decided this is what is going to help us win.

Everything we went through was the last time we where going to be in any more situations that some how was connected with our history. We took everything in our list and we decided to completely take our lessons from it and reboot rebuild and rewrite our own self story. So it can be done it does a big deal on you emotionally for the first part.

Over 6 months now n we are finding our own way. Our own footprint. Our own wants. Our own needs. We finally have had to do it all in for our family first journey together. Our own self worth is getting more attention than what we ever thought. So it’s a stressful thing. It’s a scary thing. But we all wouldn’t go back.