Today as we wait for more applications to go through for homes. We had a process before hand but ran into complications. So as we stay with a wonderful lady. With a neighbor who seems to just not like anyone. But hey we know we are doing good things so not worried there. But I chose not to freak because one moment between paths do not interrupt the journey. Hiccups are apart of life. I at least have more options now then I did before I got here.

Now it’s frustrating and discouraging at times. But I’m actually more excited because I get to choose from my own preference instead of what ever is available. It’s a crazy thing but Iv never got to be in a awesome place to be able to sit here and really enjoy finding the perfect fit for us. It’s always been what comes across our path at the time. So it’s not going to be a easy process but it will be a forever process.

It’s going on the end of our second month here and it’s still a crazy thing to be doing. Each day we start our journey together. As hubby goes to work and the kids and I learn more about this journey. We continue to grow and connect our selfs more. As the kids work out the new ways or the new things they need from each other sometimes leads to arguments. As we are going through our own personal development process. It gets frustrating and it’s not always perfect.

Days sometimes do get very annoying and I even have moments of omg this is not working right. I take a step back and remember it’s going to take a while to get everything to fall into place. As long as we take one step forward it will be ok. Even when the kids argue or get upset. I remind them to take a minute and remember it’s a big change for all of us and we can do this together. It is a beautiful journey even when we are mad at our siblings.

Little things are good to start on. Then we can do the bigger things. They love each other but sometimes the siblings rival thing really gets old but that’s part of a big family. I love the connection they share but some of the fights are over the most stupidest things lol. But I understand it’s just part of growth no matter how ridiculous it can be.

It’s sometimes like marriage lol. We never really fight about major issues. We just have annoyances and frustrating times. Since sobriety it is way better arguments then it was. Now he still can annoy me and I need a minute and same with me. But least it’s as the kids and just more annoying lol.

Now the little guy is on a no kick so he in a terrible no mood lol. Which of course is the funniest part of toddler days. (Not) lol. So I get that now. 5 year old daughter is on a new kick to believe she needs her tablet time all day. Which for some reason she thinks. Which Iv never done before so that’s fun. Our 7 year old try’s to be the boss over everything which isn’t new lol. A lot less then it was. But still a issue. 9 year old daughter believes it’s everyone else fault for anything she is apart of lol. Which is way too much lol. 13 and 15 year old are trying to come into their own journey so it’s been a tremendous teen girl dramatic moments.

Hubby and I are kinda on separate paths but still our family first path. But we both needed our own growth to be able to accomplish the family empire journey together. Sometimes in a marriage as long as we have. We kinda stayed stuck because we didn’t grow for ourselves. So I’m our marriage we kinda kept on repeat. But since we are doing this for our family we both have grown along each other but each of us feel more complete and confident in our lives together and separate. Which made our marriage more than what it was.

So in all. We have no regrets about this but we are going through a moment of stalling. Which is perfectly normal. Majority is still moving forward. Journeys are good and frustrating. It’s not perfect but it’s a big deal for us to continue even on the days of feeling like it is failing. Never give up I promise you it will be worth it!