As I have learned a lot from this journey after a month. It’s been scary at times because of the unknown real life what if’s. It’s been exciting as well. We are learning to adapt to a new state and grow as well. Being a family of 10 is a not only a lot to process in a new journey. It can be a lot of different things we must have or do depending on what we need. Lots of paperwork to be sure we have everything to making sure everybody has what they need. Every child is different from the other one.

Being from only one state your whole life and stepping into another has had its problems. Trust me. With every fail we have had to our every win it is not equal to each. Just as this move has had more bumps then wins so far. (But that’s ok) each day we learn more about this state and we are still going forward just at a slow pace. Which I learned is not a bad thing. If we want to grow together and get to where we want to be then it’s not worth going fast and not learning the right direction we need.

The kids get restless at times because they don’t have all the kids stuff they had. They get nights they are not tired yet still because of the time change. They get annoyed sometimes because they don’t have new friends yet. But that’s what a big move does. Hubby and I still have our own moments of irritation and lack of sleep or just annoyed at the heat or nothing seems to be done fast enough.

At the end of day though. We still have all our family together and our journey is moving forward and our kids are still happy as well as us. Kids arguing and us having these moments are not the end of the world. Trust me. Nothing is ever going to be perfect. Everything is not going to seem on track. Nothing is going to ever make it perfect. This journey isn’t about that. No life is going to get to perfection. And it’s ok ! We don’t want perfect. We want our family first journey together to our empire.

No matter how much it takes to make it happen. No matter how many people say you can’t. No matter how hard a goal is to reach. Don’t doubt it. I did this to long and I kept failing. I got to a point I failed so bad and hit bottom with every doubt I wouldn’t climb back. But I did. I hit every goal I doubted before. I hit every milestone I never did before. I went broke before I hit the money. No we are not rich but we can say we are not in debt to anything and did this move with a clear path. Yes it took a lot to accomplish this. But it can be done.

This is still under the unknown because we can’t predict what can happen. But we can make each day a accomplishment towards the goals. Even with the missteps we encounter because in life everyday is about learning each step towards the goals you set. Nothing I mean nothing can’t be done it’s how you acknowledge it. It’s the mindset that helps you win. Every day is a blessing to me and everyday I set myself up to be happy. Even when the day is off balance I find the same goal existing it’s just not the same path I need to reach it.

Overthinking is overrated. To much pressure is overwhelming. Fails to me are wins because we can’t fail without wins. Learning is more than a normal way. It’s life. So reach a goal win or fail. Keep trying. We went from nothing to where we are today by the reboot of our journey and ourselves. We get so stuck in what social and society says we can’t be happy or do anything if we have this or that in our past. nope. Not today. Today I showed up social society and made my own way past the rules others put together.

I’m a momma in recovery who regained her family first journey together and who fought out of past trauma from abuse in every way. Yes I was doubted I was prayed upon and I was told I would and couldn’t ever get it done. I had friends who tried to help the state take me apart and had ones that stood by me. I had people tell me I failed my family. But in the end I won and my family won together. Just because someone else says you can’t should make you can. I don’t allow the word (can’t ) in our home because I know we are capable of doing anything.

I don’t have any perfect solutions. But I do have will power and I do have self control over my life choices. yes it took me a great down fall and a fail that I have learned from. It took me to a journey of sobriety and rebooting of our own self. But that’s why I’m here today. It took a lot of self power to accomplish to this point. It’s hard work and a deep internal pain. But at the end of the day it’s all worth it for your life journey to continue. At the end of the day it was worth hearing my kids each night again say I love you and the hugs through out the day. It was worth hearing them arguing again. In the end it was worth the pain to get to today without being stuck in a repeated pain of a history I no longer lived in.